Friday, April 30, 2010

a tree fell, and I was around to hear it

It's raining, not horribly so, but it was storming earlier. Thunder, lightening, all that. But it settled down, and I was sitting in my office, the way I do. And I heard this sound, the way I would imagine a big monster throwing up. And then water gushing.

So, naturally, I went downstairs to investigate. (I have a theory that if I'm afraid of something, then that's the thing I need to do. So if I'm outside and I think a monster is going to eat me, I force myself to stand out in the dark and act like a stupid horror movie vixen.)

A tree in my yard has fallen on the neighbor's house. Not a big tree. In fact, it was actually meant to be some kind of bush in a hedge, but it's overgrown and nearly as tall as my 2-story house. But we have a whole row of them seperating our property from the neighbors, and I quite like it, because I quite privacy.

But now that tree is laying on the neighbor's roof, right above their bedroom window. I investigated with a flashlight, and there doesn't seem to be any real damage. I considered trying to pull it off the roof, but I thought I would hurt myself and/or make matters worse. Besides that, the neighbors appear to be asleep. Even tho a tree fell on their house.

I did not wake them up. But I'm wondering - what is the protocol on this? Is it my responsibility to take care of the tree? Does my homeowner's insurance cover it? (Well, I rent, so does the homeowner's homeowner's insurance cover it?) Should I apologize? I don't know.  

On a note related to this one, I've lived in this neighborhood my entire life (pretty much.) I've lived on and off in this exact house for the past 11 years. I do not know a single neighbor. I've never spoken to any of them except to stop a small boy from throwing bricks in my rose bush. I'm terrible at human interaction.

So... I'm getting nervous about talking the neighbors and wondering how I should deal with them. Hopefully, my platonic lifemate, Eric J., will do something to take care of the tree, or my cousin, who lives in a one-block radius. 

If there's a ghost or a seriel killer or a werewolf, I can handle it. I can face anything that goes bump in the night becuase I refuse irrational fears. I'm not afraid of storms or tornadoes or earthquakes or aliens (and I once saw a UFO.)

But interacting with people - I freeze up. Completely. The strange thing is that my reaction has no basis on your social standing. I once met Michael Ian Black and I reacted to him the same way when a man held the door open for me - I freeze up. I say nothing. My mouth refuses to work.

So, I am neurotic. And I don't mind dealing with a fallen tree or property damage, except that it means I have to interact with people.

Thursday, April 29, 2010

the voice of your eyes is deeper than roses

Be warned, I'm feeling vaguely philosophical. I spent the past hour or so reading quotes by Kurt Vonnegut, Chuck Palihniuk, Sylvia Plath, e e cummings, J. M. Barrie, and Dr. Seuss. 

I love e e cummings. I don't know how to explain it. A lot of what he says is nonsense, but its so strangely beautiful. 

(i do not know what it is about you that closes
and opens; only something in me understands
the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses)
nobody, not even the rain, has such small hands

See? It's meaningless and completely lovely.

But the best things in life seem to be that way, don't they? The things that are irrational. Happiness is the least logical of all the emotions, and things that insight love and happiness tend to be the hardest to define. 

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Fate is now live!

That's right! Fate is now availalbe on for the low, low price of $.99! So if you haven't already, you should check it out!

It's the second book in the series, and it starts about 5 months after the My Blood Approves ended. Alice and Jack are walking an uneasy tightrope between friendship and dating that leaves neither of them satisfied, and Peter is M.I.A. That all changes when tragedy strikes, and Alice is forced to make a tough decision that has resounding consequences for everyone around her.

I have spent the day researching more about ebook, Kindle, iPads, and generally just trying stir interest for the My Blood Approves series. It's been a very informative but mentally exhausting day. My brain currently feels like mush. 

(Full disclosure: I actually forgot my own middle name today. That was fun.)

But onto the good things: Melanie Nowak, who has been so kind to me, has already put Fate  up on her site (even before I put it up on my own actually).

I also found this site - The Indie Spotlight. Its a site devoted to independent authors, and it has links to lots of great books and people. So you should check that when shopping for new books.

I'd also like to once again point that everybody I've encountered has been so helpful and supportive. I can't thank everyone enough for tolerating my newbie stumbling. All the speed-bumps I've encountered have been because of my lack of understanding, and I've actually been really grateful for the experiences I've had so far.

And now, since I've been up since 2 am and I have the day off, I've decided to take a nap. :P

Monday, April 26, 2010

exciting news!

I just uploaded the sequel to My Blood Approves - Fate up to Kindle. It takes roughly 48 hours for the title to be approved (and it might be quicker than that). So within the next day or two, you'll be read to the sequel! Yay!

To help churn excitement, here's a pic of the cover: 

And here is the blurb from the back of the book:

"Alice Bonham thinks she's finally found a balance in her life between the supernatural and real life with her brother Milo.  Jack – her sorta vampire boyfriend – keeps her at arm’s length to keep her safe. As for his brother Peter… she’s not sure where he’s at, or what he wants with her. Worse still, she’s not even sure what she wants with Peter.

When a tragedy happens, Alice finds herself struggling with a terrible choice. Her decision changes everything, and as it all spirals out of control, she has to wonder, will there ever be a place for her in this life?"

 Meanwhile, I'm still working on edits on the third book. I changed the title to Flutter. Originally, I was calling it Ether, but that didn't really make any sense. Okay, to be fair, Flutter doesn't make all that much sense either.  Except all the titles of the book are taking from the same e e cummings poem, "Since Feeling Is First."

"since feeling is first
who pays any attention
to the syntax of things
will never wholly kiss you;
wholly to be a fool
while Spring is in the world

my blood approves,

and kisses are a better fate
than wisdom
lady i swear by all flowers. Don't cry
—the best gesture of my brain is less than
your eyelids' flutter which says

we are for each other: then

laugh, leaning back in my arms
for life's not a paragraph

And death i think is no parenthesis

I would love, love, love to have that printed in the beginning of each of the books, but I'd have to secure the rights to it. And that's not how I roll. Not as an indie author. Yep. That's right. I'm indie. Like Conor Oberst. That's how I'm labeling myself, and its awesome. But more about that in a moment.

As soon as I'm done editing Flutter and get that up, I'm going to go back and finish writing the fourth book, Wisdom. That'll probably be a couple months before I get up it up on Amazon, tho. Even after I finish it,  I have to edit it a ton. So... it should be up by July. That's my current goal.

Onto further exciting news - I've been reading this really good blog by J. A. Konrath, which I think anybody even considering epublishing should read, and its got me really excited.

Basically, this guy is a traditionally published author. He says he's mid-level, and I'll take his word for it, although I've never heard of it. But that doesn't really mean anything, since he writes the type of book I've never read. (From what I gather, its the kind of book the hit film Kiss Kiss Bang Bang was based on. And I love that movie... so maybe I should read his books.)

Anyway, I digress. The point is - he's making more now selling ebooks through Kindle than he ever did traditionally. And I'm talking thousands of dollars a month kind of money. 

And all he's done is publish on Kindle and talk on forums and blog. That's it. He wrote a book, got a decent cover, set a low price, and marketed incessently on the internet.

You know how can do all those things? This guy (I pointed my thumbs at myself but I had to stop to type.) I did that. I am doing that. I could make actual money at this.

I know its a long shot, but I think the only thing stand in my way is lots of hardcore marketing. And I can/will do that.

On his site, Konrath compares the ebook revolution to that of the iPods and music industry, and he's correct. Everybody knows it, but the publishers are trying to pretend its not. Cause change is scary.

Unless you're someone like me. Or Panic! at the Disco. They were discovered the same way.  By putting music up on MySpace (which in a round about way, is sorta like what I'm doing now.) And if Brendon Urie can do it, stealing lyrics from Chuck Palahniuk, then I can do it? Right?

(A comparison to P!atD only seems fitting because anytime I write a sexy scene in a book, I always listen to "Lying is the Most Fun a Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off," which is actually a reference to the hit film Closer, which is where Alice & Jane get their names, but I didn't know all that until later. But it's neat how parallel our lives are, P!atD.)

And, last but definitely not least, the Paranormal Romance Guild has agreed to review my book!!!! I had to order a paperback copy to send to them, and I haven't gotten it yet. But by the sounds of it, if I send it off soon, the review should be done by late May or June. Which is SOOOOO exciting!!!!!!

Also, I need to give a shout to Melanie Nowak - author of the vampire romance series  Almost Human. She's been giving me some fantastic tips, and she's put me up on her site under Authors Helping Authors section. Almost Human is a complete trilogy, but she has a second trilogy coming out soon, so you should really check it out.

That's all for right now. I'll let you know when Fate is live. I'll also probably let you know lots of other random details about my life too. So... look forward to that.

Also, I've linked the crap out of this blog for no reason. Enjoy!!

Friday, April 23, 2010

this week, in Amanda news:

I'm exhausted, but I like it. I'm trying to get in a real quick blog before I have to go to work. My goal is blog everyday, but....

Yesterday, at work, I got to go on a beautiful walk at the Nature Center. Bluebells were everywhere! I'd never seen anything like it! The ground was carpeted in blue. It was so pretty.

I also worked on my house yesterday, and we're almost done with the living room. We didn't buy enough floor tiles though, so we have to go back to Menard's. Not sure when that'll happen. But we're painting the upstairs tomorrow, and I work today and tomorrow, and it feels like every day until the rest of time.

So that's what I've been doing during the day.

At night, I've been trying to edit Fate, the sequel to My Blood Approves, so I can get that up soon. I'm hoping the first one will do better if the second one is up, too. Not that My Blood Approves is doing bad. Its actually better than expected, and I can't thank everyone enough for all their support!!!!!

I've been talking to other writers, and learning to network, and that's been fun. Well, I don't know if fun is the right word, since I'm neurotic and nervous around new people, even on the internet. But it's been good and interesting, and I'm definitely learning a lot from them.

I'm also reading a few books, and for fun, I plan on posting reviews of them. Probably next week.

On top of that, I'm trying to promote the new book, plus finish writing Wisdom (which isn't getting done at all, honestly), and write a children's book as a present for a friend. That one I won't publish, but her baby shower is in two weeks, and I was hoping to have it ready by then.

So I've gotten about fours of sleep most of to the week (or less). Today I slept in and got a massive 10 hours, so I'm feeling pretty good.

Oh wow. This blog isn't very exciting.

Here it lively it up: You should listen to the Ben Lee cover of "Kids" and the Knatterjak cover of "Time to Pretend." Oh, also try Imogen Heap's cover of "Thriller" and Damien Rice's cover of "When the Doves Cry."

Fact: I LOVE covers of songs. But these are all really, really good.

I'm out!

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

a Lady Day, a Soul Circle, a review, Pee Wee, and a big red Icee

I had a Lady Day today with girls from work, and I got to pretend that I was Carrie from the Sex in the City. (They were Miranda & Charlotte.) I got my haircut and my nails did for the very first time! They're a deep red, almost black, and they make me feel like a vampire. Rawr!

My book is now listed on the Soul Circle website. For those of you unfamiliar, its a sister site to the Paranormal Romance Guild, and it has links to all sorts of really great paranormal books. So you should check it out!

Also, on Amazon today I got a glowing, unsolicited review and it truly made my day! Click here to read it and see how exciting it it is!

Tomorrow I'm working on my house (we're putting a new floor in.) It's black & white checked, and the walls are teal. Its starting to feel very much like Pee Wee's Playhouse, and I sorta dig it. My platonic life-mate/roommate Eric says that he thinks this is how Tim Burton's house looks. Only, you know, less mansion-y.

So, I'm gonna try to finish up some edits on Fate so I can get that published soon, and then go to bed at a relatively decent hour.

But what I wish for most in the world is a giant red Icee. That'd be sooooo good right about now.

a few things about me that say a whole lot

Here's a few things about me that I think say a whole lot about me:
-I stole a copy of Maniac McGee by Jerry Spinelli from my 7th grade teacher because I really liked it (I still have it)
-I have 4 posters of The Dark Knight
-My favorite movies are The Dark Knight and My Own Private Idaho, but I've seen Labyrinth and Silence of the Lambs more than any other other movies
-I'm completely obsessed with all things Jim Henson
-Its impossible for me to be addicted to anything but I sure love Red Bull
-I cried when I finished reading Twilight
-Salem's Lot by Stephen King is the book I cried the most at (when the doctor died)
-blink 182's final album, Ryan Adam's Love is Hell Pt. 2, and Silverchair's Young Modern are my favorite albums
-"Wonderwall" by Oasis is my all time favorite song
-I own a Phil Collins and a Rick Springfield record
-I'm always constantly reading Franny & Zooey by J. D. Salinger
-After reading The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath when I was 16, I was convinced she wrote it about me
-I love hamsters and goats more than any other animal
-I mostly own band tee shirts and nicer clothes from Maurices
-My most expensive piece of clothing is a Famous Stars and Straps shirt
-I have 5 pairs of Converse
-My favorite colors of nail polish are dark blue and dark purple
-I think Alan Moore is a genius
-I love Star Wars but I can never keep the movies straight - its very strange
-I've written a total of 12 books, but the first few weren't very good
-My childhood memories are narrated by Brad Pitt (in my mind)
-Eric J. Goldman and Mark Hoppus are my all time favorite people
-I'll watch any adaptation of a Jane Austen book, much to Eric's chagrin
-Michael Ian Black is the funniest person that ever lived
-My favorite actors are Robert Downey Jr and River Phoenix, and my favorite actress is Angelica Huston, and my favorite director is Christopher Nolan
-Jonathen Demme is a hack, and I don't know why nobody talks about
-I am intrinsically drawn to gay men, and they are intrinsically drawn to me
-I love my life right now and I am really and truly happy
-My novel My Blood Approves is currently available on!!!

Sunday, April 18, 2010

new layout!

I made a new layout for my blog to match the cover of the  hit sensation My Blood Approves, and it took a lot longer than should've been necessary. Much much longer. But here it is, and oh boy was it worth it. Maybe.

I'd also like to take the time to thank the people that have supported me and my writing over the years, and I'd like to thank those of you who have purchased my book. I appreciate you spending money and taking a chance an unknown author, and  I hope you enjoy it.

I'm trying to connect with other self-published/indie authors, but its hard.  I mean, they all seem nice and welcoming, but apparently, I'm shy and rambley, even in internet form. Hopefully,  I can overcome this and join the writing community in a real way.

At any rate - I hope all is well with the world, and feel free to comment. About anything. Ever.

Friday, April 16, 2010

whoo hoo meets exhaustion and an excerpt

The good news is: My Blood Approves is currently available for Kindle on for only $.99! That's right. I'm practically giving it away!

The bad news is that I spent so much time promoting it and looking up stuff and trying to network that I didn't get any writing done on anything else. And I'm not sure that I have anything to show for all that hardwork.

Self-promotion feels so weird. I feel like such a jackass saying how awesome something I did was. And all these author bios where I have to write about myself in third-person? Ugh. 

And I don't know how Kathy Griffen does it. For reals. Because its hard, and it's a fine line between promotion and SPAMing everyone and being obnoxious. But at the same time, if I sit back and do nothing.... well, then nothing happens.

Onto more positive things: I promised an exerpt from My Blood Approves last time I blogged, and even though I'm not sure anyone is reading this, I deliver on all my promises,

In a move that may prove stupid, I've decided not to use the first chapter as an excerpt. (It's available on via the "Look Inside" feature, so it seems redundant.)

My Blood Approves excerpt:

The television channel TNT, in its infinite wisdom, had a John Hughes marathon running on all day. Milo, who had never understood the appeal of Molly Ringwald, watched them with me. He tried to convince me to watch something else, but I was stronger than him and manhandled the remote.
We started onto our second viewing of Pretty in Pink when my cell phone started to jingle. It was going on midnight and I assumed it was Jane calling for some kind of sober cab service (even though I did not possess a car), but I picked up my phone off the coffee table anyway.
Instead, I found a text message from Jack.
So. You haven’t texted me.
You’re very observant. I responded.
My plan was to try to be indifferent. I didn’t appreciate the idea that I had probably fallen victim to some kind of spell or hormonal manipulation.
Does that mean you don’t want to be friends?
He actually typed that, like a note I’d get in the first grade. Something about that completely endeared him to me, and since I couldn’t smell or see him, I decided that must mean that I actually liked him.
No. I do. Definitely.
“Who is that?” Milo asked with an edge to his voice. He was sitting at the other end of the couch from me, and he leaned over so he could look at my phone, but I turned it away from him. “It’s that Jack guy, right?”
“You do realize it’s perfectly legal for me to text members of the opposite sex.” I gave Milo a hard look and he just shook his head.
“Whatever,” Milo said and turned his attention back to the movie. My phone rang again, and Milo made a humph sound.
Excellent. Wanna do something? Jack messaged.
What did you have in mind?
Anything. Everything. The city is our oyster! Jack texted back.
That sounds pretty ambitious. I replied, but it did sound exciting.
It is. So can you be ready in like fifteen minutes? Jack asked.
Sure. Meet you outside.
In a flash, I touched up my make up and slid on shoes. Before rushing out the door, I promised Milo that I wouldn’t be home too late and that I had my phone if he needed me. He grunted at me, and then I dashed out to meet Jack.
He was already waiting outside, this time in a bright red sports car that looked like it cost more than a house. He grinned wildly when I opened the car door and jumped inside.
“So, this is nice,” I said, referring to his overly flashy car.
“It’s more than nice. It’s a Lamborghini Gallardo,” Jack explained with that foolish grin plastered on his face. “There are only six thousand of these in existence.”
“Is it new?”
“Nah, it’s my brother’s,” Jack said.
Before I could say anything more, he put the car in gear and it thrust itself into the street. I had thought we had gone fast in the Jetta, but it had nothing on this.
“Your brother must be loaded.” The car gracefully slid around a corner and weaved in between cars. Quickly, he turned it onto I-35, presumably so we could get the full effect of it going top speed on the open road.
“He kind of is,” Jack shrugged. “I don’t really worry about money, I guess.” It was the casual way someone talked when they never had to struggle for anything, and I wondered if Jack was wealthy and where he came from.
“It must be nice,” I muttered.
We were pretty poor, but not quite so poor that I felt like I had to get a job and bring in my own money. Just enough where I felt it.
“There are plenty of other things to worry about,” Jack replied seriously. “Believe me.”
“Like what?” I looked over at him, instead of the blur of the scenery flying past us. He smirked at me and shook his head. So that was another thing he wouldn’t talk to me about. “So you have a brother?”
“Two, actually,” Jack said. “And a sister. Well, she’s actually my sister-in-law, but she feels like a sister.”
“So is she married to your brother, or are you married?” I asked tentatively.
“No, I’m not married,” Jack laughed. “She’s my brother’s wife.”
“What are their names?” With the endless amount of things I wanted to know about him, I was stuck asking safe questions.
“Peter, and then Ezra is married to Mae. Ezra is the oldest.”
“What about your parents?” I turned towards him and rested my head against the seat. The rush of the world around us had made me a little dizzy.
“Dead.” His voice was emotionless, but his eyes got hard, which didn’t look right at all.
“Sorry,” I offered lamely.
“Nah, it was like fifteen years ago.” He shook his head, trying to brush me off, and then he turned to me, his face brightening again. “What about you? You have family?”
“My mom, and a younger brother,” I answered. “But he’s more like an older brother sometimes.” Jack laughed loudly at that, his wonderful laughter echoing throughout the car and sending waves of warmth over me.
“Yeah, I can completely relate,” he grinned.
“Really?” I had always thought of Milo as an oddity, but it was nice to know that there was someone out there like him.
“Yeah, but Peter’s something else,” Jack said. “Really. I doubt you’ll ever meet anyone like him.”
“Well, I’d have to meet him first,” I pointed out.
“Maybe someday.” He sounded weirdly far off, almost apprehensive.
 “You’re not married, but does that mean you’re single?” I asked.
“Uh, yeah.” Then, before I could ask him more about that, he turned the tables on me. “What about you? Are you seeing anyone?”
“Hardly,” I snorted. Other than a few drunken make out sessions at a couple parties, I had nothing to show for a love life.
“Why not?” Jack pressed.
“You saw my friend Jane,” I said dully. “She has this way of completely stealing all the light in the room.”
“Oh, she does not.”
 “Why don’t you have a girlfriend? The ladies obviously like you.” I changed the subject back to him.
“That’s actually part of the reason why. Everyone likes me without ever knowing me. It makes it hard to have a real relationship with somebody.”
“So… what’s the other part?” I asked, and he didn’t answer. “You’re not going to tell me.”
“I think there’s a midnight show of Rocky Horror Picture Show in Lakeville,” Jack announced randomly. “Are you up for it?”
“Sure.” I glanced out the window, watching the car glide through traffic. “So, why didn’t you drive your car tonight?”
“That’s not really my car, either.” He didn’t really answer my question, but I was starting to get used to that. “It’s my sister Mae’s.”
I noticed that he called her his sister, not his sister-in-law, and I wondered if that was simply an oversight. His insistence on being so mysterious was making me overanalyze everything.
“Do you even own a car?”
“Yeah, a jeep. I just haven’t felt like driving it lately.” Then he flashed a sly smile and looked over at me. “Besides, this is so much faster.”
“That doesn’t seem fair at all,” I said tiredly after riding in silence for a minute. My mind had been to trying to figure out all the things he wouldn’t tell me. “You won’t tell me anything about yourself.”
“Hey, I’ll tell you almost anything about me.” He kept his tone light, but he looked a little wounded. For the first time, I realized that he not telling me bothered him just as much as it did me.
“My favorite color is chartreuse. I love the Ramones and the Cure. My bedroom walls are painted dark blue. I had my first kiss when I was fourteen while listening to ‘Rock Lobster’ cause she really, really liked B-52’s. I should’ve taken that as warning sign that it would never work, but I was awfully young and stupid.” 
“Chartreuse?” I questioned, skipping over the remainder of his confession. “I don’t even know what that is.”
“It’s sorta like a bright olive,” Jack explained. “It’s the color most visible to the human eye because of where it sits in the light spectrum.”
“You’re incredibly random.” We turned into the parking lot of the multiplex, and I realized he had managed to avoid really telling me anything. When he pulled into park, I looked at him seriously. “So why can’t you tell me things?”
“Why do you think?” Jack asked, not unkindly.
“Witness protection.” It was an idea I had actually considered but quickly crossed off because it didn’t really explain anything. And just as I suspected, Jack laughed.
“Okay, that’s not it.” Still smiling and shaking his head, he hopped out of the car, and I quickly followed him.
“Hey, does that mean you’ll actually tell me if I guess right?” The movie had probably already started, so Jack was walking rather fast towards the theater, and I chased after him as swiftly as my short legs would carry me.
“I don’t see why not,” Jack said, and that perplexed me even further.
“If I can guess it then why can’t you just come right out and tell me?”
“It’s just the way it is.” He opened the big glass doors of the theater for me, and I walked inside, furrowing my brow.
When he went up to the cashier to buy tickets, I started rummaging in my pockets for my own money, but he just waved me off and paid for my ticket. If I hadn’t been so preoccupied by this new development, I probably would’ve protested further.
“So, are you Rumpelstiltskin?” I asked him, leaning up against the counter as he got our tickets.
He laughed loudly, and the cashier blushed at the sound. He was completely oblivious to it, and I hoped that I would hurry up and feel the same way. I hadn’t really staked a claim on him, but it was still irritating to notice girls drooling all over him, especially when I was visibly with him.
“That’s awesome!” He handed me my ticket, and while I did feel overly happy about his minor compliment, I only let the frustration show on my face. He walked to the theater, slowing enough so I could keep up with him. “Rumpelstiltskin. That’s really awesome. I’m gonna tell Ezra that.”
“Why? Are you guys like a family of goblins or something?”
Jack laughed, shaking his head, and then pushed open the door to the movie before I could question him further.
The movie had already started playing but just the very beginning. Many people were dressed up in costumes from the movie and throwing popcorn at the screen, so for once nobody noticed us sneaking into the back row.
Rocky Horror Picture Show was a pretty good movie and I did rather enjoy it, but either Jack had ADD or he had being evasive down to an art form.
Deciding to make the best of the situation, I followed suit and watched the movie. Jack was a borderline fanatic. He hadn’t dressed up in a black corset or anything like that, but he shouted right along with all the lines.
When “Time Warp” came on, I thought he might get up and dance, and he probably would’ve if there'd been enough room in the aisle.
Towards then end of the movie, I had settled back in my seat, and even his enthusiasm had faded a bit. My arm casually brushed against his, and I felt struck by his odd skin temperature again. His skin was soft and warm, but it felt more like touching fabric than it did like touching a person.
It was such an odd sensation that I felt like I had to get more of it. I pushed my arm over on the shared arm rest, very deliberately pressing my bare skin against his. The back of his hand felt impossibly soft.
He hadn’t pulled his arm away, but I felt his gaze so I looked up at him, finding a very perplexed expression on his face.
“Are you trying to hold my hand?” Jack asked, as if the idea were completely alien.
I was not trying to hold his hand, but I didn’t appreciate the way it seemed so offensive to him. What would be wrong with that?
“What if I am?” I stuck out my chin, ready to hold my ground and find out what would be so bad about hitting on me.
Without hesitation, Jack called my bluff and took my hand in his. It definitely felt like I was holding hands with doll or something other than another person, but then it started to warm up, his skin heating up unnaturally, and I pulled my hand from his.
“Okay. That’s just weird,” I whispered.
In response, he just shrugged, apparently deciding against explaining his abrupt temperature change. 
We watched the rest of the movie in silence (or at least I did – he continued shouting lines and singing). By the time it ended, I had started yawning, and I knew that I’d have to call it a night pretty soon.
Not that I wanted to. Bizarre handholding and classified information aside, I really enjoyed spending time with Jack and I didn’t want it to stop. Not ever."


Wednesday, April 14, 2010

diaries, books, and vampires

As you may have heard, my soon-to-be-hit novel, My Blood Approves, is for sale on The eBook still isn't up, but it should be soon. Like tomorrow. 

Eric, my beloved gay roommate, has pointed out that I've spent more time promoting the brilliant televesion program SouthLAnd on TNT than I do my own brilliant book. So I'm going to be plugging it, and you're going to like it.

My Blood Approves is available on, and its sequels should be up soon. (I have some editorial changes to correct before they go live.)

Tomorrow is a new episode of Vampire Diaries, of which I'm very excited for. I'm team Damon all the way, but Stefan is growing on me. Also tomorrow is a new episode of Community, perhaps the greatest show ever made for TV. 

At any rate, I suspect that tomorrow, I'll talk about Vampire Diaries and recommend you buy my book. I might also post an excerpt tomorrow, and new links about the eBook. And tell you things about future books in the series. 

So you might want to check back on that.

semi-published author meet semi-success

Here is what we are going to talk about today: My book is now listed on The download for Kindle isn't available yet, bu Amazon says it should be in like two days.

At this moment, this is the most successful I've ever been as an author. Snap to myself. 

Even though the ebook is not yet available (which is where I think I'll see all my sales), it would greatly please me if people who have read My Blood Approves review it.  (Preferably positive, but honest always works for me too).You can create your own review: here.

This is a different version than you've read, though, because I edited a lot, to make it cleaner, faster, fancier, and all around better. So when it is available for ebook (for the low, low price of $.99  - that's less than a penny a page!!!), you might want to download it.

Or, if you're really zealous, you can buy a paperback copy now. (Note: My book makes a great gift!)

I've made changes to Fate (the second book), and that should be up on Amazon soon. Assuming this whole My Blood Approves thing works out favorably.

As a reminder, here is the back jacket for My Blood Approves:

"Seventeen-year-old Alice Bonham’s life feels out of control after she meets Jack. With his fondness for pink Chuck Taylors and New Wave hits aside, Jack’s unlike anyone she’s ever met. He does things shouldn’t even be humanly possible, but she can’t help but feel safe with him.

Then she meets his brother, Peter. His emerald eyes pierce through her, and she can barely breathe when he’s around. Even though he can’t seem to stand the sight of her, she's drawn to him.

But falling for two very different guys isn’t even the worst of her problems. Jack's family holds a secret, one that threatens Alice with mortal danger…

Enticing? Exciting? Enchanting? Yes, its all of the above and so much more!

I'd really like your feedback and support in all of this, because... who doesn't love feedback and support, right? Plus, this is almost a big step, and its kinda scary. At least for me.

Here is the link to My Blood Approves (which I've actually linked throughout the page.) Or you can go to and type in "Amanda Hocking," and it takes you to it. (That's exciting too. At least for me.)

And on a final note: SouthLAnd. It's an amazing brilliant TV show and shouldn't be cancelled. (You can sign a petition here: It'll be well worth it.)